My goal is to get back to blogging on a regular basis. I have the time now..so I just gotta do it! I'm working on my website and hope to see it up soon. Right now its a mess..lol. My candles have been doing quite well, I'm getting alot of good feedback from them. Makes me happy. One the cancer side of my journey, I had my treatment this week. I have hormone treatment due to my cancer being estrogen driven. My treatment consists of IV every 3 weeks, bone treatment every 6 weeks thru IV, an injection in the abdomen every 3 weeks to bring on menopause. I also take a cancer pill daily. Overall I'm doing ok. I have good days, bad days. There are times I just sleep, or just lay low. There are still days I can conquer the moon. I love it when I have those. I have days that I feel so well I cannot believe I'm stage 4. Then i have days where I hurt so much I KNOW i have stage 4. I'm attempting to come to grips that I will not be cured. Apprently you dont get cured from Stage 4. You die from it--at some point. I hate that. but i'm coming to terms. there are more and more women surviving many years with this cancer--good quality years. Some are well over 10 now. I want to be a part of that group. That is my prayer. Also, i figure each year you survive, newer treatments will come out--and perhaps one will come along where its a given that you can live--out a normal life span, just always have the disease. In the meantime, my goal is to spend quality time with my children and grandchildren, camp more--beach more, travel with my husband...AND build my business to a solid enough business I can pass it down to my kids so they have an income. I love my business.. LOVE it. I need years to do what I want--so like I said--my prayer is for years. Its winter here in wisconsin,, I'm not happy about that. going out into the cold now--it goes right to my bones and its very uncomfortable. I'm longing for the warm weather so im more comfortable physically but also so I can get out and embrace life..gardening, swimming, staying up and and star gazing..all the things I love to do. It means so much more to me now. I hope to also build my blog...I still want to decorate and make my home a safe, comfortable place to be..and I still enjoy reading and trying new recipes. I will get out and blog visit again...and I hope to meet many freinds--and if im lucky--maybe some that have survived the same type of cancer that I have and are living a decent quality of life. If you know of anyone that is doing well with Stage 4 breast cancer--PLEASE send them my way. Cancer is a lonely journey.
