Thursday, December 1, 2011

Life in general

My goal is to get back to blogging on a regular basis.  I have the time I just gotta do it! I'm working on my website and hope to see it up soon.  Right now its a  My candles have been doing quite well, I'm getting alot of good feedback from them.  Makes me happy.  
One the cancer side of my journey, I had my treatment this week.  I have hormone treatment due to my cancer being estrogen driven.  My treatment consists of IV every 3 weeks, bone treatment every 6 weeks thru IV, an injection in the abdomen every 3 weeks to bring on menopause.  I also take a cancer pill daily.  Overall I'm doing ok.  I have good days, bad days.  There are times I just sleep, or just lay low.  There are still days I can conquer the moon.  I love it when I have those. I have days that I feel so well I cannot believe I'm stage 4.  Then i have days where I hurt so much I KNOW i have stage 4.  I'm attempting to come to grips that I will not be cured. Apprently you dont get cured from Stage 4.  You die from it--at some point.  I hate that.  but i'm coming to terms.  there are more and more women surviving many years with this cancer--good quality years.  Some are well over 10 now.  I want to be a part of that group. That is my prayer.  Also, i figure each year you survive, newer treatments will come out--and perhaps one will come along where its a given that you can live--out a normal life span, just always have the disease. In the meantime, my goal is to spend quality time with my children and grandchildren, camp more--beach more, travel with my husband...AND build my business to a solid enough business I can pass it down to my kids so they have an income.  I love my business.. LOVE it.  I need years to do what I want--so like I said--my prayer is for years.  Its winter here in wisconsin,, I'm not happy about that. going out into the cold now--it goes right to my bones and its very uncomfortable. I'm longing for the warm weather so im more comfortable physically but also so I can get out and embrace life..gardening, swimming, staying up and and star gazing..all the things I love to do. It means so much more to me now.  I hope to also build my blog...I still want to decorate and make my home a safe, comfortable place to be..and I still enjoy reading and trying new recipes.  I will get out and blog visit again...and I hope to meet many freinds--and if im lucky--maybe some that have survived the same type of cancer that I have and are living a decent quality of life.  If you know of anyone that is doing well with Stage 4 breast cancer--PLEASE send them my way.  Cancer is a lonely journey.