Thursday, December 1, 2011

Life in general

My goal is to get back to blogging on a regular basis.  I have the time now..so I just gotta do it! I'm working on my website and hope to see it up soon.  Right now its a mess..lol.  My candles have been doing quite well, I'm getting alot of good feedback from them.  Makes me happy.  
One the cancer side of my journey, I had my treatment this week.  I have hormone treatment due to my cancer being estrogen driven.  My treatment consists of IV every 3 weeks, bone treatment every 6 weeks thru IV, an injection in the abdomen every 3 weeks to bring on menopause.  I also take a cancer pill daily.  Overall I'm doing ok.  I have good days, bad days.  There are times I just sleep, or just lay low.  There are still days I can conquer the moon.  I love it when I have those. I have days that I feel so well I cannot believe I'm stage 4.  Then i have days where I hurt so much I KNOW i have stage 4.  I'm attempting to come to grips that I will not be cured. Apprently you dont get cured from Stage 4.  You die from it--at some point.  I hate that.  but i'm coming to terms.  there are more and more women surviving many years with this cancer--good quality years.  Some are well over 10 now.  I want to be a part of that group. That is my prayer.  Also, i figure each year you survive, newer treatments will come out--and perhaps one will come along where its a given that you can live--out a normal life span, just always have the disease. In the meantime, my goal is to spend quality time with my children and grandchildren, camp more--beach more, travel with my husband...AND build my business to a solid enough business I can pass it down to my kids so they have an income.  I love my business.. LOVE it.  I need years to do what I want--so like I said--my prayer is for years.  Its winter here in wisconsin,, I'm not happy about that. going out into the cold now--it goes right to my bones and its very uncomfortable. I'm longing for the warm weather so im more comfortable physically but also so I can get out and embrace life..gardening, swimming, staying up and and star gazing..all the things I love to do. It means so much more to me now.  I hope to also build my blog...I still want to decorate and make my home a safe, comfortable place to be..and I still enjoy reading and trying new recipes.  I will get out and blog visit again...and I hope to meet many freinds--and if im lucky--maybe some that have survived the same type of cancer that I have and are living a decent quality of life.  If you know of anyone that is doing well with Stage 4 breast cancer--PLEASE send them my way.  Cancer is a lonely journey.

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David Haas said...

Hello,
I have a question about your blog. Please email me!
Thanks,
David

Connie said...

Hi Dawn....so glad to see you back. I am putting you on my 2012 prayer list and know with your positive spirit that you will kick this crazy cancer to the curb and be able to LIVE!!! Keep up the good thoughts and I pray you will be able to connect with someone so that you can share. Otherwise I am here to cheer you up and onward to LIVING!!! So enjoy your business but really enjoy your family and those grandbabies!!

Love ya girl!! Connie

Shelley said...

I've been thinking about you Dawn. I haven't blogged much recently, hope to start again. But you are in my thoughts and prayers. I have a friend who has survived stage 4 for close to 10 years - she is a miracle walking. I've tried to encourage her to blog but she's been busy w/ her son. If I can convince her, I will have her come visit you.