Monday, March 12, 2012

Spring Crocus

I bought a new camera that I've learning to use.  Its a Sony Cyber Shot, not the greatest of greatest but appears to be pretty good. I got tired of the bigger Fuji Camera that I forget to lug around and wanted something very small to carry in my purse at all times.  When you think of all the wonderful things we see, and then are unable to capture them because we left our camera at home.  Sooo, I finally went out and got a small camera that I can have with me at all times.  This is a close up shot of my crocus.  They popped open this weekend. Wisconsin is having unusually warm temps right now.  Of course we are all hoping that means they are here to stay.  No more snow, no more cold temps right????????  Well, we all know the cold and possible snow flurries will return..but the nice thing is-they will not return for long.  Spring has definitely arrived.   I saw my first robins on March 11, went to get a picture but they flew off and havent seen any since.  I'm excited for it to be a daily recurrence.  I'm continuing to do ok...cancer continues to show signs of diminishing.  Its very hard to get excited about this because I know with Stage 4...its always there lurking.  It will progress again...just dont know when.  My hope and prayer is that it regresses long enough for them to find a medicine that will surely give us a chronic condition..not a death sentence.  I am one who really believes there will NOT be a cure.  The money that pours into cancer research is amazing...it will not be given up.  Soo I think the best we can hope for are new meds to give us longer life, but the cure will forever elude us.    I'm getting used to being off of work.  I am doing ok except that I am longing to be outside.  I get restless being couped up in the house for days on end.  I just returned from a 4 day Metastatic Breast Cancer Retreat that was amazing.  I kept getting asked, "am i having fun", "did I have fun".  This was the first time in my life I could not answer that question.  It wasnt fun...it was heavy, spiritual, deep, and one of the best experiences of my lifetime.  The closeness and understanding from woman to woman when they have cancer is unreal.  We are all traveling a path we would never have picked, but yet its not all bad.  Some of it is very very good.  The women are amazing fighters.  All the same reason for wanting to survive---our families.  That is the hardest part of all for me, knowing most of us may not make it very long and yet all we want is more time with our families.  Gut wrenching.  
I'm also getting my home ready for spring.  We have all our deck furniture out.  Nice so when its nice outside,,i can enjoy sitting out there...best to get our Vit D the natural way!  I plan on a small trip this week to Oklahoma to visit our son. I'm looking forward to a long roadtrip and checking out the sights of a new city!  Hopefully i'll have plenty of pictures to share with you on my return!


6 Thanks for your comments!:

Suzann said...

Hello Dawn,
Thanks for visiting and I wanted to stop over to say hello!!!
Hope your day was wonderful!!!!
Suzann ~xoxo~

laurie @ bargain hunting said...

Dawn, the retreat sounds like such a wonderful bonding experience. I'm so glad you were able to take part in that. I could feel your concerns in this post, but I could also feel your optimistic attitude. You'd be crazy to not be concerned, but it takes a great spirit to have an optimistic attitude. Still saying prayers for you. Enjoy your trip and your new camera. laurie

Nezzy said...

Sounds like your retreat was just what ya needed. Nobody knows unless they've been there, done that.

I'm prayin' for ya girl!

You have a blast and a half on your Oklahoma jaunt to see your Man Child.

God bless and have yourself a sunshiny kinda day!!! :o)

laurie @ bargain hunting said...

I was just thinking about you and wanted to pop over and tell you you're in my prayers. laurie

Kuki... said...

Hi Dawn...
Stopping in to say that I awarded your blog the Liebster Blog Award! The award button can be retrieved from my blog so that you can proudly display it!
My wish is the award will help to grow your following.
Congrats!

Lilly said...

Dawnie, that retreat sounds wonderful and best of all you have a network of others who understand how you feel. In fact, so many understand as cancer touches so many lives. I am so glad spring has sprung and the weather will bring more time outside. We always feel better in spring. Take care and you are in my prayers.