Hi all, its been awhile. Seems to be the same thing I say everytime I come on the blog. Lots of changes for me in the last couple of months. I'm now done working. I officially went on Long Term Disability and my last week was last week. I simply cannot do that job full time--not even part time. They need help and my little assistance of 15 hours a week made me feel guilty. Soo I let go. My long term disability will cover my health insurance hopefully until Medicaid kicks in which is 2 plus years away. Finding out about all this is pretty disconcerting. It takes 6 months to get SSDI...and then another month to get the check..so really its 7 months for that. For Medicaid it takes 2 years, AFTER you get your SSDI. I think they hope you die before they have to insure you. Anyhow, for now--for today I am ok. I still have my health insurance and should be able to care for that until I am eligible for Medicaid. I had my first set of scans right before Christmas and it showed the cancer diminishing. My oncologist said I have alot of cancer--so I have a ways to go. I have Cancer in my breast bone, my spine, my pelvic area and my ribs. I can tell its lessning as I have no need for any type of pain meds right now. I weaned myself off of Morphine, Oxycodone, and Naproxen. I was on alot of meds those first couple of months. Today I take nothing other than my daily Femara cancer pill and my IV treatment every 3 weeks. I am on hormone therapy. My body seems to be responding ok to treatment. My only side effects as of today are sore tongue and fatique. I have had problems with my treatment lately, my veins will just not cooperate. I had the port put in last Thursday and I'm recovering from that. I think once this heals--it will be a blessing to NOT get poked again. My blood tests continue to be great, my immune system is at its peak. Despite needing to lose at least 75 lbs, being full of cancer in my bones,,,they say I'm healthy--I find that funny. Its amazing how our bodies work and respond. Anyhow I'll take that good news!
Currently, I'm working on my website and my business. I need to bring in some sort of extra income due to losing mine. I pray God will bless my business and my efforts. Its taking alot of work--I'm new at this and I'm finding it NOT easy. Each day I try to list another product...
My family is doing well, everyone is healthy and good...and thats a blessing also. When I got sick i received several books from people. I was unable to read them due to lack of time but now that I'm not working I do have the time. I also wanted to declutter my house. I simply cannot stand all this little "foo foo" stuff anymore. I cleared out my dining room somewhat and made myself a little corner by the patio doors so I can sit and read, pray etc. I bought this new chair, added a small angel fountain, and hopefully once the cat understands this is my chair-not HIS..I will be able to sit and use it. I like to watch the birds eat and play and this will be an awesome place to view that. The blanket on the chair is special. This blanket was prayed over for 5 days by my SIL and BIL church and people. I put it over me and pray for God to heal my body and others who have cancer. Stage 4 is scary...I try not to be scared. My goal is to reach NED (no evidence of disease) and stay there for 25+ years. Most of my posts will be Cancer related, I'm sorry if that isnt fun...but its my life now. I still enjoy cooking, decorating etc...but the reality for me--is fighting daily to live. I know that alot of bloggers prefer the "happy" the new items for the homes, etc...while thats fun..and a nice escape...I hope that some will find their way back to me--and help me on this journey. I'm amazed at how one can buy a lamp and get 50 comments...one can post on something like this--and get none. We need to support each other--life is NOT all decorating and "happy". Its dam hard, its lonely, its scary. I hope this dosnt offend anyone but I've seen alot of death, sickness and fear the last 4 months. I'm not the same woman. I'm a woman that has a deep heart and ache for all those hurting out there by this insideous disease. Please join me in freindship, and prayer..and just support!
I love this bunny that hangs above my french doors. She's full of color, reminds me of spring and she's free flowing.
I purchased this large bunny a couple of years ago from Pier 1 Imports. She holds candy for the grandchildren when they come over.
The fireplace mantel is freshened up for Spring also. I didnt do as much as I normally do this year. Energy level isnt quite there yet. I'm happy that I"m back at things and doing fairly well. I dont know if any of you have noticed but it seems the stores just arent carrying much these days. I think they are spooked about the economy and dont want to get stuck holding all kinds of leftover merchandise. I get that, but at least could they carry something different and unique???? Where I live there arent many choices to shop..so its very limited. My favorite place is normally Target, they carry alot of seasonal merchandise and its usually quite different. This year, i didnt feel they had much. Oh well, I guess that means I'll hang onto my money for the "hopeful" vacations I may get this year. In 2 weeks we plan to drive to Oklahoma to visit our son. I'm looking forward to the drive and change of scenery. I'm getting quite tired of doctor appts and treatment and this whole new life "cancer". I want to put it away in a box and never have it come out again. Is that possible?
